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proactive_with_pep) wrote2018-08-19 10:13 am
proactive_with_pep) wrote2018-08-19 10:13 am
TFLN + GEN TEXTS + MEME OVERFLOW
She can slay many a thing but captcha is not one of them. Leave your baggage here.
She can slay many a thing but captcha is not one of them. Leave your baggage here.
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Or you get cursed by gypsies.
Yeah well, that's her job as the best friend. Right?
Oh good, performance anxiety. That's gonna help me be smooth.
Can I call you beautiful again? Or tell you I miss you? Because both are true. And anything else I say might... make both of us sad.
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which clearly didn't work and now you've witnessed me failing miserably both in person and through text
yay
it's one of the many jobs of bff
she's a little scarier than most with the whole practicing wiccan thing she has going on
so you might wanna step up your nice game with me
just saying
:D
look at that
you're already doing a good job
(and v smoothly might i add)
almost to the point this could be taken as flirting
almost
because it's not flirting
. . .
is it?
i mean
not that it matters bec i like what you said either way
ftr i miss you too
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I am being nice!
Besides what's she gonna do? Curse me to feel guilty all the time?
Oh, wait.
[ he really needs to stop making jokes about his curse. but he's tired of tiptoeing around it, especially now that buffy's seen first-hand why he got it. ]
I kinda thought that's what we agreed we could do? Flirt long-distance? I mean that kinda seems between a relationship I can't exactly give you, and nothing.
If you want me to stop, I will.
And I don't just mean now. Just. Any time you decide it's not--what you want anymore.
[ if anybody is failing miserably at this, it's definitely angel, bringing the whole mood down. ]
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i mean
sort of?
probably funnier in person tho
yanno where i can see your reaction to telling the joke
( she's being completely serious, too. she can tell, even if no one else can, when he's making a joke. somehow. )
okay see that?
that was def funny even through text
but on a serious note
she could come up with a way to make you pay
she could curse you with terrible fashion sense, taking away one of your best traits
we did!
and we are!
so don't stop flirting
i'm just scattered brained trying to get to my last class across campus and trying to avoid people going to parties already and texting you and trying to remember what building they moved this class to after there was an incident in the last one
which btw totally not my fault for once
and the stopping goes both ways
anytime it gets to be too much or feels like it will be, just tell me and i'll deal
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I also appreciate you think I have good fashion sense, since I've already been told this week that I need to stop buying clothes with the criteria of 'can I throw this on in the dark where no one can see me clearly?' and 'will I look good in this while brooding?'
You know telling me "don't stop flirting" ensures I'm going to stop, right?
Like I said: performance anxiety. I can't do it on command, it has to come naturally.
And if we keep talking about it, that just ensures that it will never come naturally, ever again.
Wow, college really is different than high school. Someone else causing destruction of school property?
Flirting across 100 miles isn't going to be the problem, for me.
That's just about the perfect amount of angst to keep me not-happy.
But I want you to be happy. Completely happy.
If me being part of your life, being selfish and wanting to keep what little we can have, ever gets in the way of that
you have to let me know.
Maybe someday I can actually let you go.
But until then, if you need me to, I can at least pretend.
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tell cordelia, i'm assuming it was cordelia who told you this? unless you know someone else who would make a very astute observation about your clothing choices?
anyway
tell her, or whoever it is, there's nothing wrong with your clothes
if she still gives you a hard time then go buy sweatpants and sweatshirts
she'll back pedal real fast, you'll see
leave it to you to make texting complicated for me
thanks
😐
anyway
consider this me not expecting flirting but if it happens it happens and just know i'm okay with it
obviously
oh and this is me now dropping the flirting conversation entirely so no anxiety
i see your wow and raise you an ow
bec that was harsh
but also fair
yes, someone other than me caused the destruction
frat boys threw a party and let's just say they know how to cause damage without summoning demons
or so i hear
believe me when i say i'm happy
with this, with you
is it what i pictured?
not really but it's good
different but good
and not to be a killjoy but us splitting up wasn't my choice, remember?
i never wanted you to go or to not be a part of my life
so me ending things has all signs pointing to not gonna happen
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Doyle has worse fashion sense
or maybe it's just 'no fashion sense'
I'm not sure which one is worse honestly.
Yes it was Cordelia
I'll tell her, and keep the sweats idea just in case.
texting is complicated for me, I'm just spreading the misery
I'm kinda known for that
around the office, at least.
How does it feel, not being automatically blamed for property destruction?
Buffy...
Look. I stand by my decision to leave, and not just for the reasons I gave you.
I don't trust myself with you. And I don't trust the curse, or what constitutes "perfect happiness."
I think you should see what it's like, to be yourself, instead of you-and-me, for a while.
And I don't mean this in a 'childish' way, but you've got growing up to do, learning to be independent
and me hanging around wasn't going to help.
And considering - and I will deny saying this if you ever bring it up again - Spike was right
and we can't really be "just" friends
removing myself seemed like the best option.
Could I have handled it better? Almost absolutely.
I still think I made the right choice at the time
I'm just... too selfish to see it through the way I'd thought was best.