I appreciate that you think I'm funny at all, even if it's only in person.
I also appreciate you think I have good fashion sense, since I've already been told this week that I need to stop buying clothes with the criteria of 'can I throw this on in the dark where no one can see me clearly?' and 'will I look good in this while brooding?'
You know telling me "don't stop flirting" ensures I'm going to stop, right? Like I said: performance anxiety. I can't do it on command, it has to come naturally. And if we keep talking about it, that just ensures that it will never come naturally, ever again.
Wow, college really is different than high school. Someone else causing destruction of school property?
Flirting across 100 miles isn't going to be the problem, for me. That's just about the perfect amount of angst to keep me not-happy. But I want you to be happy. Completely happy. If me being part of your life, being selfish and wanting to keep what little we can have, ever gets in the way of that you have to let me know. Maybe someday I can actually let you go. But until then, if you need me to, I can at least pretend.
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I also appreciate you think I have good fashion sense, since I've already been told this week that I need to stop buying clothes with the criteria of 'can I throw this on in the dark where no one can see me clearly?' and 'will I look good in this while brooding?'
You know telling me "don't stop flirting" ensures I'm going to stop, right?
Like I said: performance anxiety. I can't do it on command, it has to come naturally.
And if we keep talking about it, that just ensures that it will never come naturally, ever again.
Wow, college really is different than high school. Someone else causing destruction of school property?
Flirting across 100 miles isn't going to be the problem, for me.
That's just about the perfect amount of angst to keep me not-happy.
But I want you to be happy. Completely happy.
If me being part of your life, being selfish and wanting to keep what little we can have, ever gets in the way of that
you have to let me know.
Maybe someday I can actually let you go.
But until then, if you need me to, I can at least pretend.